I have this weird thing where the sound of chewing, crunching, slurping, or any smacking sound that another person’s mouth can make is disgusting to me. It’s terrible and I want to change how I feel about it, but I can’t. Is this OCD? I feel like it is OCD because I’m obsessing about something that is irrational. I’m sort of like the OCD guy with Mysophobia (Urban Dictionary’s germaphobia) who keeps washing his hands because he touched a door or a towel or something…he knows that it is irrational for him to think the towel has something disgusting on it, but he can’t stop thinking about how disgusting the towel is, so he washes his hands repeatedly to sooth the disgust feeling.
This is how the sound of chewing is to me…except I don’t have compulsive activity to go along with the irrational obsessive thought. The obsessing doesn’t interfere with my work life. I can push through it and people I work with don’t know I’m suffering.
I told my wife about my problem and she’s not extremely supportive. I think she’s more offended than anything…like she thinks I’m insulting her by my obsessing over everyone’s chewing in my head. So I’m real careful not to say anything. In fact, I never say anything when I’m suffering from the obsessive thoughts because it would just sound crazy to other people…
Am I doomed to suffer in silence for a lifetime? What can I do? Are there others out there like me? -Carl Miller